i hate it
i hate to admit that i'm finally have a big crush on you.
i hate it.
because i know that i did something wrong
it shouldn't be like this
i hate it....
because i feel comfort, when i'm with you
there's only you, when i need someone to be with me and protect me.
No one else
that's why i choose you
it's strange.
how can i have a crush on you, but we haven't meet each other?
that's such a great thing!
like a magic.
you don't even say any spell to me.
i dont know, for me, you're totally different.
you teach me many things and i learn so many precious things from you
please..tell me that it's just a dream.
wake me up, now!
i can't stay on this beautiful dream anymore.

That's why I hate this........
I hate to admit this, to you.
Because I'm afraid.. I know i'll fall again, soon.
whether falling in love or falling down to the deepest hell.
i know it will hurt me.
i'm worrying now.
I know i have no reason to have a crush on you.
But still, i can run away.
This is the truth, this is what i'm feeling now.
I cannot lie to my self.
I'm tired to be not honest to my self
cause, it's really.. really hurt me later.

So please, don't let me fall anymore.
Please, say that i have made a best decision, and you have no doubt on it.
Please, let me... at least, just for this time..


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